Tired Swing

Penang..tg park,indian,lawyer,agents,mum,dad,myself...... too many thing in my mind, i have been sleepless for 2 straight nights, i cant stop thinking and my heart keep pounding fast..... When can this end? i have a not so great instinct ,thing will go 3 rounds before coming back to the same place.
That's my fate, my luck , myself? Do i believe in what not exactly controlled by me.

Penang is the same nice place , slow pace and noisy busy streets......But i saw something extraordinary yesterday, row of people, to be exact is rows of "muslim women in tudung" marching towards penang ferry terminal. By passers are panic, and so is my dad, riot!?!Movement?!unrest?!@ We were inside "kuang ying temple" praying for everything go smoothly, but i heard the temple keeper was shouting to tourists and visitors that the temple is closing ,,huh!! never so early at 430pm?? He shouted " pls faster, i need to go home to see my child and have dinner with them" come back tomolo lah..... Dad was seen panic and this is the first time i saw him running, with his grey medium hair flying in the air"

I tell myself myself to be calm, eat slowly, dun be jittery abt wht happened. Everthing will be fine, as my mood is swinging from one place to another, i cant concentrate, the most scariest thing is i cant concentrate on sleeping, My favourite past time is sleeping leh.... I leave the relevant person to handle the necessary things, i am paying, so let me be free and relax... I miss my baby dearie. hope he is here with me.

Now i am so tired swinging, is a tired swing . (from south to north)